Showing posts with label selfwork. Show all posts
Showing posts with label selfwork. Show all posts

Thursday, April 13, 2017

Change Agents and the City

While reading the articles for this week, I was struck by how the Apartheid City structure reflects Roanoke’s geographic and zoning de facto barriers that have been used for voluntary and involuntary racism and spatial clustering. Roanoke’s development continues to take into account and cater to the Creative Class and the Young Urban Professional -- while these are not exclusively Caucasian or any race or even nationality in particular, the Carilion Cadence is the beat of this city’s heart more often than not. To date, that has involved development for the attraction of well-educated medical and creative staff, many of them young, able bodied, and childless, more interested in running the greenway near the pub and shopping a farmer’s market near the loft building than addressing needs of native residents’ lack of access to transportation, food, or equal educational offerings.

To be physically separated is demoralizing; it is a public stamp of approval of different social realities for different folks, of non-belonging and of exclusion. The conditions of exclusion were deemed so offensive and antithetic to the ideals of the United States that they were deemed unconstitutional by the Supreme Court in 1954 when the Brown vs. the Board of Education case resulted in the ruling that “separate but equal is not equal.” Certainly such stratification and the systemic neglect and violence that go with it seem in direct conflict with the United Nations’ call for “A dignified and secure existence in cities.”

Anderson writes that “Simply living in such an environment places young people at special risk of falling victim to aggressive behavior.” When we look at the decisions made by Roanoke and so many others cities all over the country, the efforts to revitalize urban spaces seems fraught with tension, especially as urban planners work with politicians and existing businesses to ensure the best economic reality while achieving an orderly and aesthetically pleasing design. the problem seems to lie in the idea that the revitalization is appealing and accessible to everyone equally.

Right now gay is hip, so we are happy to have a Gay Pride parade and Pride in the Park festival. Cities are scrambling to follow Roanoke’s example of celebrated inclusion: we happily have festivals for any culture -- Greek, Lebanese and Local Colors are just a few that come to mind. It’s estimated that Roanoke’s population is growing by one thousand residents a year, many of these newcomers attracted by the open and active image that Roanoke has.

But much of the separateness is still ignored by Roanoke, and we are developing two very different Roanokes indeed, one a poster for inclusion and happiness for mostly-young, moneyed, and able-bodied residents in the south and another for those who support the former -- the disenfranchised, mostly (but far from exclusively) African-American who live in the north.

Folkways bump into and often trump mores all the time, but it’s never more apparent than during interactions at the physical and societal edges of public space, where the spaces are inadequate to hold all our various realities simultaneously, and the differences in our individual expectations for behaviors and consequences becomes manifest. When north meets south in Roanoke, the expectations of behavior, language, dress and redress are evident and ultimately no one feels familiar or comfortable. Oppositional cultures seem at times merely one more part of a social system that is deeply stratified -- unified by twitter feeds and facebook groups and how we consume the stream of information from our social networks. The narratives of these networks can be, and often is, dramatically different at any given time. While Twitter might be flooded with the antics on the senate floor or the big reveal in a netflix show, the same timeline of facebook might be wholly taken up with sports plays or the social issue of welfare and the minimum wage.

As Roanoke reclaims and reinvents space -- from previous industrial sites such as along Salem Avenue to undeveloped sites such as Brandon swamp -- to create gathering, activity and residential space, folkways and our internal programming are ruling our interactions more than ever. I am hopeful that Roanoke will slow down development long enough to start listening to matters of justice as well as matters of paint colors and housing needs and development opportunities. It’s time that we look to other, at times informal ways in which urban problems of inequality and injustice are being dealt with effectively. Not to do so is to actively invite these issues to be addressed informally in ways that have proven not only ineffective, but downright toxic for those they serve.

More than anything, the readings show that availability and quality of services makes a huge difference in residents’ quality of life and peace of mind, the very qualities that Anderson highlights as lacking in the streets, forcing street residents to develop, adopt and enforce a behavioral code to address the feeling o of “alienation from mainstream society and its institutions.” This combines with a “profound” lack of faith to create a pervasive context of hopelessness, the lesser of “two contrasting conceptual categories” whose pressures and consequences extend far beyond geographic borders and economic boundaries. In this reality, one can count solely on oneself and one’s own resources of spirit and attitude, and “physical prowess takes on great significance.” In his analysis, Anderson finds “hopelessness and alienation . . . fuels the violence” that so many cities experience.

In a curious twist of events, surveillance has proven a powerful ally in effecting social change in the last decade. The United States culturally rejects state-sponsored surveillance out of hand, decrying an inalienable right to privacy (while demanding that apple, amazon, facebook, and every other tech giant in the land hand over all data and the codes to hack the system). But self-surveillance has become the lifeblood of the twenty-first century equality and social justice movements, and the state has implemented surveillance measures more out of self preservation than of attempts to effect social control. To be caught on camera -- body cam or cell phone -- is to validated and to be accountable. Through this nationwide citizen-level campaign of Observe & Record, we as a culture of the governors and the governed believe we are finally real, that we have a voice, and that we matter. Surveillance is proving to be the real equalizer, whatever Sam Colt might have led us to believe.

The crime and violence is but a symptom, a harsh reality that residents all over the globe know in their bones and are trying to address. When Mexico attempted to let the residents achieve their own solutions, the reality was that power-grabbing and status building led to the same development stratifications and fragmentations as when the politicians were in charge. Having lost sight of their good-natured beginnings, “community organizations in Mexico City serve largely as Low-income real-estate developers.” Money, politics and a system seem to come together to create their own self-sustaining streams of existence, and seem to be far from David Harvey’s vision that we can “change ourselves by changing the city.”

Ultimately, if we are more interested in self-serving aims -- the bolstering of our own social status or the increase in our personal profits -- we are not going to be able to realize the change we want to see. We must genuinely start acting as though everyone is equal and has the same right to the best social services, from libraries to restaurants to sidewalks and schools. Perhaps the message is to change ourselves to change our cities.

Wednesday, April 12, 2017

Spring Cleaning Tips For Your Mental Health

This article from Bust is so good I am re-posting it. And taking everything to heart, too.

The icy paws of winter have finally released us from their blizzardy clutches! We’re free: running, jumping, tripping over ourselves, eager as f*** to get this whole spring show on the road. Cherry blossoms, sunshine, and a general cheerfulness has started to turn the world new shades of beautiful. It’s going to a party all the time.
But wait! Are we really prepared? You may have cleaned out the closet, purchased a new wardrobe, and finally removed that cobweb dangling in the stairwell, but there is other deep cleaning to do—and it’s all in your mind.

1. Forgive yourself. We want what we want and we want it now. But things usually don’t work out that flawlessly. Chances are you’re an imperfect human and you had some let downs this winter. Can you identify what those less that perfect things were? Are you holding resentments and grudges against yourself? What can you let go of? Remember that you can’t control everything, that constantly berating yourself with insults or insecurities will not allow you to heal or change. Forgive and move forward.
2. Set intentions. What do you want to cultivate this spring? Sit down in a quiet room, take a few deep breaths, and begin to write. Jot down a list of the things that make your heart beat. What things do you love, and desire, what is next for you? And dream big. Best case scenario what would you like to bring into your life this spring? Be specific: Do you intend to get hired as a marketing coordinator for a non-profit that works with women and children abroad, finally learn how to tightrope walk? Being able to literally see your intentions exist outside of you, and on a piece of paper makes them somehow more real—this is the first step.
3. Take things slowly. Ever rocket launch out of bed in the morning and then get lightheaded? Twist an ankle, even? It doesn’t mean you’re clumsy, it means you’re frantic. Remind yourself that nothing happens overnight, unless it’s a pimple. Anything you desire will come to you slowly and subtly. And this is what spring is all about. It is a transition that exists between winter and summer, it is gradual time of shift, it is a time to plant seeds, set roots, and care for ourselves with new found hope and lightness.
4. Make a plan. When the going gets tough, and it will because that's life, what will you do? What self soothing behaviors can you create? What do you often forget to do that you actually love? This can be dancing, seeing friends, reading books, doing your nails, going to workshops, getting to nature... and start now. Don’t wait till you’re at a breaking point. Prevent breaking points by making yourself a well oiled and cared for machine! Preventative care is better than damage control! Make dates with yourself to do these things, put them on you're calendar, make them a priority.
Remember nobody has to live in your mind but you! So make it nice and comfy this spring, stop to smell the roses, and come back to these four mindfulness check in’s when you start to move too quickly!
Images Via Jana Weaver, Mystic Mama, EatBreatheThriveBrooklyn, Amy Jean Porter

Friday, November 4, 2016

~ o h m ~

I'm really looking forward to picking up yoga in the park again. With all the scheduling changes, it got dropped, but it's long overdue to add it back in, and Friday morning hasn't been the same since I stopped going. I know that it was because Vivian wasn't with me, but I'm looking forward to including her in the Monday evening offering. She has missed it and Bonny has missed having her in class.

I know I wouldn't be able to fit in the health and wellness pieces of my routine if I didn't have such great support from my partner. It really is all about balance.

Wednesday, June 8, 2016

Cookies and gardening

Today we hit the gym after breakfast and I took a long time of it in the sauna, which I really needed, and then a long hot shower, followed by some gardening and a batch of cookies and some cinnamon tea before rest time.

Life is good.





Tuesday, June 7, 2016

Even superheroes need a breather

Wow.
Super tired.
Sometimes I forget that all the meditation, regular fitness, add-on intense fitness sessions, and rigorous intellectual and creative work that I'm doing is still work, even though i really like it and believe in what I'm doing. After we picked up vegetables, eggs, and fruit for the week, we all hit the library and the shopped for a couple items at the co-op. Putting stuff away at home, i hit a wall with being tired - i just totally ran out of steam.

So I'm resting again before dinner.
And it's going to be an early night tonight.      

Yesterday at the gym:
  • Walk -jog 1 mile
  • 32 back extensions
  • 32 inclined sit ups
  • 20@7.5#(l,r) each: swimmers press, skull crushers, fly
  • 1 minute plank
  • 30 minute sauna meditation
Today at the gym
  • Walk -jog 1 mile
  • 32 back extensions
  • 32 inclined sit ups
  • 1 minute plank
  • 20 minute sauna meditation
After the gym yesterday
  • met with my sponsor
  • Women's group meeting
After the gym this morning
  • tried to jump start Harvey's car
  • Met with the chaplain discuss independent study on spirituality, empowerment and communities
  • Went to yoga therapy
  • Rested until time to get the vegetables for the week.  
Life is so very very good.

Monday, December 14, 2015

Finishing Touches

I'm pretty serene today, feeling calm and pleased with myself and my world. I have a wonderful family and friends; I can make nice things and do some things well; there are cookies and a tree. I feel loved and loveable.

The scarf is dry and it has a label and is ready for giving.

Fall term is over, and my classwork is satisfyingly complete. I have an independent study lined up for next term, and the abstract for the paper got submitted to a conference. I have no idea when I will find out if the paper has been accepted, but I'll be writing it anyway. Registration is scheduled for next week for the independent study and the thesis. 

It's the final day of the current six week challenge, and I am looking forward to writing up some insights and carrying on next year. Self-improvement has become a way of life, and I am really loving it.

There are giggles and ornaments and love in abundance; we have chocolate chip shortbread and pumpkin pies ready to bake; the jeep is back. I made some much-needed calls to good effect; there are knitting projects lurking in the wings, preschool choir concerts, and Netflix offerings.

Life is good.


Wednesday, December 12, 2012

New assignments -- now with colors!

Consider what you want to do and where you want to go as if you're viewing reality through a wide-angle lens to give you a sweeping panorama. You'll have plenty of opportunities to narrow your focus later on.
This morning I met with the new boss and we went over three new projects for me to take on in the weeks after Christmas and into the new year. I'm very excited (ok, I know that my nerd roots are showing, but it's true!) and am looking forward to the tables, maps, graphs and charts -- and colors! -- that the coming work will bring.

On the life front, I have been taking some spare moments in the last couple days to outline what I want to accomplish next [everything from End World Hunger to floss] and to start graphing the process of how to achieve that. It's fun, and it's all part of the lifework that is my bucket list.


Friday, November 30, 2012

Regrouping

Last night I finally felt on-track for the first time since the Holiday. I know everyone else really likes Thanksgiving, and I certainly enjoyed the time with family and friends, but I need structure in a way that is beyond rational. Disruptions to the routine really , really throw me off, and it takes a goodly bit to reset.

I knit more on the Blue Sweater while the children and I watched (an amazing episode of) Arrow with dinner (yep, it came from a box and I'm over it) and then caught up on a bit of Revolution that has been languishing in the queue. The sweater now measures about six inches from the underarm, and I'm liking it. I'm nearly done with the second skein, and I have another nine inches or so before I start on the sleeves.

And I know it sounds mundane, but the children and I were finally back on track with the little pieces of our lives -- chores, pick up for karate, dinner routine last night, and then this morning I felt as though I could breathe well for the first time in ten days as I headed out the door to the gym (don't let the disgruntled look fool you -- I always look like that when I get out of bed at o'dark hundred). The children were up and dressed with only one telling, and I can't tell you what a difference it made in my day.

No, I still haven't made a meal from scratch in over two months. No bread in over a month. And there is still a pile of boxes (slowly diminishing, but still there) next to the trash bins. The laundry and dishes are top priority for the weekend chore list, and cleaning bathrooms and floors trumps organizing. Paying rent trumps shopping, as ever, and we can all just have a little at-home celebration that we have a home to pay rent for, and that it is warm and welcoming and spacious enough to have friends over for D20 games and generic gathering.

I'm looking forward to reading more of Geekomancy, to knitting and putting the clean laundry away. I plan on letting myself watch television instead of fretting. I might end up making a bit of white bean chicken chile if I feel adventurous, letting it perk in the slow cooker while I am at Pilates on Sunday afternoon (still one of the best parts of the week).

Monday, November 5, 2012

I'm taking a walk

It was too cold to watch the Quidditch Finals match, so we met up with friends, ate mightily, drank well, played games, and decided to take a walk. I joined the local Planet Fitness and started tracking my distance on the stationary bike. I met with a personal trainer and told her about my back and heart issues, and she identified safe training goals that would matter, various ways that I can exercise safely while still making Optimus Proud.

I'm being joined along the way by some awesome people, and I'm keeping track of my progress (of course: I am still a nerd, you know!). I'm mapping out challenges and skills, areas of real hiking that are similar to the path the Hobbits followed, and (naturally) some serious reward. In addition, Lizzy and Alessandra are joining me in restarting our Sunday Pilates routine.

Currently I'm not quite at Stock Road, but I can see it from here. I'm looking forward to every step of it.

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

The Road Thus Far: Chrysalis

Good grief. What happened to me this Spring?

On March 1, I started a random bit of self-imposed homework and the next thing you know, my life looks truly different. I’m not saying that a lot of this wasn’t already in the works, or something I wanted to do and had thought about pursuing before, but I’ve never had so much consistent positive forward motion, despite the resistance that threatened to bog me down. If I’m really honest, the path started in December when I met a mortgage agent who said he was willing to work with me if I was willing to do the work required. Boy, I bet he had no idea what he was about to unleash; for that matter, I had no idea that I could accomplish all that I have. But here’s the important part: it’s not about what I accomplished, but how those small accomplishments have impacted my self image and how I feel.

It seems that once I got my feet under me and shook off the winter, I put in place a gradual-but-undeniable (some might even use the term relentless) path of improvement. For all that the list below looks a little intimidating, it wasn't really very hard at all. I just made up my mind and did it. The secret was that I didn’t look at the big picture while I was working – I just looked at the single step I was taking. I wasn't on a death march, by any means. In fact, it was pretty gradual, starting from a "Hey, do you want to . . . ?" conversation in each and every case. I surrounded myself with people who were supportive and positive, and cut out the people who weren't. The results are more than impressive; they are awesome.
  • I signed up for Six Sigma Certification classes in April, and they started in May. I completed the Green Belt certification at the end of June. I feel credible.
  • I started Pilates on May 20. Seven weeks and five classes later, I'm in love with it. I look and feel better than ever, and the two weeks I was without my Sunday ritual I felt spiritually depleted. It has become my church service, and The Girls have become my spiritual community. I feel connected.
  • I went rock climbing for the first time in my life on May 5. I have since been once more, and I'm looking forward to incorporating it into my regular life. I feel strong and capable.
  • I purged clothes that don't fit and stuff I don't use. I feel lighter.
  • In July, I paid off my final old medical bill and my credit is officially rehabilitated. My credit rating has climbed from laughable to serious, and I am in charge of my financial reality in a way I have never been in my life. I feel responsible.
  • I got prequalified for a mortgage and I am working with an amazing realtor to find a house I like that I can afford in the neighborhood I love. I feel enfranchised.
And it's still going on:
  • I began classes for Lean Six Sigma this week. It’s another level up from the Green Belt, and at times, just as before, I’m lost and have to go back through the lecture a second time. I’m dedicated, though.
  • I am considering an outdoor climbing camp. Real rocks. Real high in the air. Kind of intimidating. Can't wait. (The only reason I'm not already signed up is because I'm waiting to see how much I need to put down on the house.)
And here's the best part: It was worth it every step of the way, even when it wasn't fun. I was scared or overwhelmed (or both) at each endeavor. Honest, there were even times that I thought I simply wasn't going to be able to do it -- I was going to fail. In so many ways this looming failure was liberating: it freed me not to worry about my success and to focus instead on the process. And here it is.

Right after we moved out of the farm, my sons bought me a mug that I simply adore. It's heidi-blue, and in white letters it reads Just when the caterpillar thought her life was over, she turned into a butterfly.

P.S. Just as I was putting the finishing touches on this The Year Thus Far analysis, my friend posted a quote on her blog. I can’t think of a better way to wrap this up, so here it is:
This life is yours. Take the power to choose what you want to do and do it well. Take the power to love what you want in life and love it honestly. Take the power to walk in the forest and be a part of nature. Take the power to control your own life. No one else can do it for you. Take the power to make your life happy. ~Susan Polis Schutz

Thursday, July 17, 2008

living oprah?

Yesterday on the way to volunteer at the local library, i heard an article on NPR where a woman named Robyn is dedicating a year of her life to "living Oprah." I groaned inwardly, assuming this was another celebrity-wannabe moment, but man was I ever wrong. I listened to the interview, and confess that i was impressed by Robyn's vision and by Michele Norris' questions. Serendipitously, I have in the past few months found myself secretly attracted to the Oprah craze. I like what she has to say about living better, more meaningful lives, the lives we think we should have, and in fact are often within our reach. So Robyn's attempts to put Oprah to the test were fascinating. Oprah's site is my only real source of Oprah, as you can't pick up even PBS in our area without a satellite dish, and that's where i found an article that was so good, i posted a tidbit of it (with my own commentary, of course). When I visited Oprah's site today, i discovered that she and her friend Bob Greene have decided to issue a challenge to people to live the lives they imagine. I wanted to sign up, but then realized it's all about weight loss, the single area of my life that actually doesn't need any improvement. Go figure. But there has been the continuing stuff-purge going on, and I haven't really done much since last weekend (bad heidis). Tonight I should take some of the bins and go in Graeme's room, even if i do nothing more than pick up everything on the floor and toss it summarily into a bin, it would be an improvement. Actually, that sounds like a pretty good idea, and something i can likely accomplish in 30 minutes. I've been so overwhelmed by the whole stuff-issue that I gave myself a thirty minute limit: i can only take on a task that takes thirty minutes or less. Even if i decide to go on to another one, i need to take a break in-between them, sit down, have a resting moment. Baby steps. Can I have a margarita while i do it? Honestly, I feel lost in my personal life right now, though that's nothing new for July. What I do know is that as in-between, neither-here-nor-there as July always feels for me, somehow things always seem to solidify in September and October. I don't know if it's just the social training of the school schedule or what, but it seems that however I get to the Autumnal equinox, it is somehow indeed balancing. By the time the pumpkin carving comes around, I feel more myself, and as though the path ahead of me is clear. This year I'm trying to make the most of the July fourth - Halloween limbo by setting up a framework to make the coming year as simple and uncluttered as I can. It's all about possibilities.

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

No more excuses

I don't do the whole New Year's Resolution thing, usually. Ash Wednesday and Lent always seemed more my time to be reflective, think about where i'm headed and how my steps are taking me there (or not). Since my teens, I've challenged myself not only to think of what i'm giving up, but what i can take on to be more the person I want to be. So, starting now I'm spending my time instead of my money: for an hour a day I'm thinking about finances. Don't groan: it has to be done, and in my case, what with having a career and assets and suchlike, it is high time i took this on. Thankfully, Simple Dollar has made this really straightforward. It's too early (Ash Wednesday isn't for a whole week), and the program is too short (Lent is 40 days, not 31). No more excuses: The time has come.