Wednesday, June 21, 2017

I Want a Man I Want

I want a man who is quiet
Who leads by example
Who believes in respect
And respects belief.
I want a man I want to listen to
Not one I have to.
I want a man who is clean
Whose touch cleanses my soul
Whose kiss is redemption.
I want to believe
in myself more because
he believes all
the things that I am
and doesn’t care about the places
I have fallen
and will fall again.
I want a man to whom I can be
released by surrendering,
In whose waters I can dive deep and come
Up for air with full lungs and a whole heart.
I want a man who can
Support without pedestals
Hold his own in a room
Give without smothering
Accept without embarrassment
Argue without anger
Protect without diminishing
Assist without condescending
Fight for me without forgetting I am
Real
Passionate
Whole

I want a man who sees me
Whole, disregarding the pieces
The shattered tatters of my soul
Littered on the path behind me
Shivered dust of all the mirrors I have been.
I want a man who romps and stomps and drinks and frolics and explores
With me sometimes as good, sometimes better, sometimes needing his hand
Who cherishes me
Before
During
After.

I want a man to whom I can give
Without giving away
Touch without being consumed
Trust in the darkness
With the sounds encroaching
Have at my back never
Holding me back
Build
Explore
Create
Nurture
Hope.

And a decent game of chess would be nice, too.
I’m greedy like that.