Tuesday, May 7, 2019

Life as a Guest House

This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they’re a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still, treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.
Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.

---- Rumi

Wednesday, April 24, 2019

The Why of You, Two

Proof: The Why of You

If y = f(u) and u = g(x), then

The why and you, continuous
At a point wthout limit
Transforms you
Until
The change in you becomes
The change in why.

The change in why appears, over
The change in you, of course.
Until
The change in you comes
To nothing.

Limits show. Leaving
Until
The change in why becomes
The change in you.

Friday, April 12, 2019

Borges: A Reflection

Lately I've been lucky enough to have a friend reading me some of Borges' stories, and I'm fetched.

Borges has a lyrical command of the language, combined with a breadth of knowledge - either is capable of making me need to hear a sentence or phrase again, just to wallow in it. But Borges isn't content to be lyrically intelligent. He turns both language and intellect to present a mildly cheeky, always imaginative rendering of the inconsistent and often problematic machinations of society without cynicism. It's a deft balance, and he does it well, but more than that, he inspires me to reach beyond the easy offering of cynical views.

This is not a seeking of answers so much as it is a beautiful and ornate funhouse mirror in which we are still ourselves, reflected back in whorls of ourselves.

Wednesday, April 10, 2019

Assessment

Physical Therapy assessment day, and I feel queasy and in a fog.

Even Knitting seems too much for me just now beyond taking out a dozen rows or so to fix a mistake. Because anything worth knitting is worth knitting three or four times.


Saturday, March 9, 2019

Living in Love

Living in Love is risky; it's openly vulnerable, and the challenge is to stay centered in possibilities while staying centered in the midst of fear. Love will hold me and guide me if I let it.

I've slept more hours than I've been awake most days, and since Sunday I have felt as though I've been hibernating. When I am awake, I'm emotionally raw and thinking is difficult - I've become the queen of wrong turns and misplaced nouns.

The sauna helps. Swimming is the only exercise that I can do, so I do that for a bit. Yesterday I was worn out after 300 yards.

Wednesday, March 6, 2019

Retrospective 2

What is going on now that harkens back to the middle of May 2018, when Uranus first crossed the threshold from Aries to Taurus? Remember the Mother's Day Hawaii volcano eruption, the week of rain in Roanoke, the emotions and the feels that were everywhere, the structures and inspiration that came from out of the blue to guide you forward? And of course, the Royal Wedding, full of Markle Sparkle and enough sheer romance to make even the hardest-hearted among us say awww.

Uranus turned his breakdowns and breakthroughs back into Aries once again in early November last year, and he's done making a double-check on what he meant to get done. He's back to Taurus again, to stay until April 2026.

What has been happening since then on the identity front?
Who are you and who are we as a culture?
How has this changed in the last year?