Friday, March 26, 2021

In the Garden

Ash Wednesday marks the day that Jesus of Nazareth retreated from the path in front of him, seeking discernment in solitude, a solemn reminder of human frailty and the need for reconciliation with God, the beginning of the 40 days of Lent in the Christian calendar that ends with the crucifixion and resurrection Lent was always my favorite liturgical season, marking an observance even after I left the formal church and began my journey of the Spirit. This year I feel the 40 days acutely, harkening back to 2017 and all that came after.
I rarely quote the Bible, but 37 days into this Lenten season, the account of Jesus' words resonate with me.

Sit here, while I go over there and pray.” And taking with him Peter and the two sons of Zebedee, he began to be sorrowful and troubled. Then he said to them, “My soul is very sorrowful, even to death; remain here, and watch with me.” (Matthew 26:36-38). And He withdrew from there about a stone’s throw and knelt down and prayed. (Luke 22:41) And he said, “Abba, Father, all things are possible for you. Remove this cup from me. Yet not what I will, but what you will.” (Mark 14:36-38)

Today I am feeling worn out and spiritually weak. I'm frustrated and having difficulty seeing the Design in the path I'm on.

So today is a day of prayer, a vigil of sorts for my weary spirit. I'm lighting a candle each hour, praying for those who stand against me, giving thanks for those who stand with me, and honoring the willingness within me. 
May you have peace this day.